这是什么心情。。。

What kind of feelings i am having now
i feel like wanna cry
i already try my best
but why...... this time
people fooling me around
i thought that i was always that lucky
but now...
God, i need u
please help me...
i dont know how to settle
i dont know who to find
i am not good in communication
i thought i can handle it good
but now i realize that i cant

why all of them already agreed
but quit suddenly at the last minute
who can i find
i am scared that i disappointed them

i know that after rain there's always sunshine
but i feel stress
a hard rock pushing my heart
it's so heavy
i cant carry it on
Lord, teach me
help me
guide me to the path u have prepared for me
refresh my mind

can i cry?